I Still Miss You

I just wanted to let you know that I still miss you. Today is no special anniversary. It’s not your birthday or some sort of day to remember. I just was thinking of you today. … Though that is nothing new. I think of you often. Sometimes with happiness as I remember the way we laughed at things together. Sometimes with sadness as I think of the moments that we can no longer share.

I’ve come to realize that time does not heal everything. Still, I feel that lump in my throat while burning tears cloud my vision. Still, I feel as though I surely can not take another breath.

There are times when I handle myself better than others. Times when I talk of and think of you in all happiness. Joyful for the assurance of where you are. I remember the good times and all the silly things we did together.

And times when I can not.

I remember the last time that I saw you. I didn’t think as I hugged you goodbye that it would be the very last time I would ever do so. When I said that I would see you later, I didn’t know that later meant heaven.

How I wish now that I would have hugged you longer. And tighter. I wished I would have told you again how much I loved you. And still do.

I wonder if you know what sort of imprint you left on my life. What sort of impact you left on the world. Perhaps I can tell you all about it when I meet you in heaven.

But until then, I still miss you.